Resolution???

Did I Resolve to write everyday on this blog? I can't remember. If I did, I over spoke. That happens to me alot! HA not really. but I do THINK about writing the blog when I am not writing th blog. and I think that counts. I do what I can...just like we all do.
Sunday. My favorite day of the week.  what's yours? Sundays make me think of when I was little. We would go to church and come home and eat a big lunch.  Just hang out together. I love those memories. That is pretty much the routine that we stick to with my own little family. although it gets harder because sometimes Jack is still out of town and when he is home....Sunday is his anything goes day...as far as eating goes. which is horrible for me! HA but it's fun!!! We usually make some kind of disgustingly delicious brownie or hot cookies  :)  good thing he is not home today (whew! no cheating!!!)

I had 3 meetings last week. meeting one was shockingly blunt and the forecast there is grim. Meeting two went well. I think they liked me more than I liked them tho. Meeting 3 was great but only in a way that showed promise WAY down the future.  SO the search continues. Jobs and relationships are similar. You want one but you NEED a GOOD one. because there is nothings worse than settling for something that is either not good for you, or will hurt ya later.

I did get a gig!! It only takes ONE to make it grow into something more! Jack and I are gonna play the Blue Crab Festival. It is in May. So if you live in/near Palatka FL. come on down!!!  I can't wait to tell my friend Amy M that I am playing there again!! We had such a good time last year! She and her sister provided "supplies" for the funky hotel that they always put the bands in... you know lysol, a fresh comforter :) I do have a hotel policy  of not staying somewhere with the doors leading directly outside (scary! ) and this place had put one of those smoking stations right outside my door...and yes people did gather there. HA but I love playing that festival!! So I will do it again!! haha
I think that is what I need a little more of. giggggsssss!!!
Have any of you ever thought about hosting a house party? They are pretty cool! Sometimes greater than other times, BUT if you have a house and some friends that like to hear music, but don't like to go to bars, or maybe you do, but you want people to come do a show for YOU. then hit me with a mssg and I will give you the details and see if we can work it out.  :) It's not as big a deal as you might think. and it's cool and fun!!!

My photoshoot will be very soon. preparations for the new album. I dont like having photoshoots. but I will do it. operation starvation continues. !!!  haha more later!!!

Bottle it up

This is one of my new favs. I hope you love it too. This will be available on the forthcoming album (only without the family pics !!

seeds

I was just sitting her sulking thinking about things. I know...highly unattractive...but still....I can't help it. I was thinking about my new pub deal job search. I keep going to meetings. I keep calling. I keep playing the music. I am determined. I am positive I will find the place that is RIGHT for me.  I MUST!! But then, there it is...that little bitty niggly feeling in the back of my  mind (we will call it the devil) that whispers, 'well you prob don't deserve it, you really dont write THAT great, if you wanted it bad enough, you would get it' I hate that voice. He always gets you when you are down. and when you are down he speaks louder... causes doubt in what deep down inside you KNOW you can do....what you KNOW you  love...what you are meant to do.  I hate that voice. He keeps me awake. He distracts me. He preoccupies me. Why? Why do I let it get to me? Why do I listen? How can I even let myself hear it when I have such wonderful things around me? Such beautiful music inside?

 I write songs. All day. everyday in my head. I don't always sit down and take the time to write them down or record them, but I write songs all the time. I couldn't keep them away if I tried. I always thought I was weird and it took me a long time to realize the everybody doesn't do that.  So  why do I let negative thoughts about myself dictate my feelings?  why do I let it make me suffer? UGH. and UGH! 

But  tomorrow is another day. I will take another meeting. I will play my music. I will wait for the responses I always get ("wow, this sounds great. what a great singer, you mean that hasn't been cut yet?..." ) I will brace myself for the "well we aren't really signing anybody right now, but let's hook you up with so and so and let's keep in touch" goodbye. 

I will plant a million seeds if i need to. a million. surely out of a million one will grow and bloom and flower and spread nurturing light and love to all that sees it. right? a MILLION. I will not be defeated. This is who I am. My name is amy and I write songs. and I sing the crap out of them.  a MILLION!!

What a relaxing day we had today. I like those. Jackson and I played with playdoh. then I pretend to be a horse while a two year old rode on my back. Then there was a round of living room baseball where he acted out running the bases in slow motion. oh but that isn't all!!! not by a long shot! We wrestled. We boxed, only he had the only boxing gloves...  It was fun. He is funny and says the goofy stuff that you wanna write down and keep forever.  I feel really lucky to have been able to have him.
Madeleine was gone most of the day at a birthday party. She is growing up. It makes me sad. I still think of her as being little with two crooked pony tails.  She is sweet and smart and funny. We tried out a new dance studio this week. Everyone needs to expand and reach out of their comfort zones, but man is it hard to do! She really embraced the opportunity though and she shined! I was so proud of my sister for that. Lea (my sister) is such a great dancer and such a great teacher. that really showed when Mad went off on her own and took what she had been taught with her. It is such a special thing. You never know what you got till you are tested. when it comes to that testing moment, you have two choices...go all the way or don't go at all.  I am proud of Madeleine and I am thankful for Lea. What a gift she has given Madeleine and all the girls she has taught.
Glad the hubs is comin home tomorrow :) It has been a while since he has been gone. I miss him!!
ok...enough reflecting .....

songwriting is tricky

Songwriting is tricky. It really is. there is a fine line between cheesy and precise. It is hard. but it is awesome. The feeling you get after you write a song you love is so great! One thing that I have learned  is that that wonderful feeling is fleeting! It doesn't last! You write the song. You feel great! You and your cowriters are high fiving! You are get all amped  up talking about the production! Then you go to bed. sleep well, wake up and realize that you have to do it all again! The blank page is scary. I always wonder if it will ever happen to me again!
 Today was a pretty good day. I wrote with friends. we laughed alot and made up stuff that we think is cool. Is that enough? I don't know. I really dont. Today for me was difficult. usually I have a good attitude. Im a kind of nothing keeps me down, rocky balboa kinda girl. I just keep swinging. I am not sure if it is the horrible GRAY January that we are having or the fact that I am looking for a new pub deal (prob a good old fashioned one two punch of BOTH!) but I cannot shake my funk!! I swear I am trying!!! I want to be my normal perky effervescent self, but I feel like mush and yuck and blah on the inside!!! I think yoga is  helping. I hope it is anyway.  I am gonna go to bed now....hoping tomorrow is full of light and hope for me...and for you too!!!
later gators!
oh one quote from today " Oh my gosh! I am a very bad streetwalker"~ Amyd (while trying to cross the road and nearly being run over... then making it worse when everybody in my party was laughing at me for saying that. you had to be there! )
amyd

new hair=LOVE

Why is it that when you get your hair colored you feel like you lost 10lbs? Isn't that awesome??? I didnt get even one hair cut but I feel lighter. perkier. peppier...YAY!! See, isn't this better???

"Home for Christmas" cast pic!!!

This is the cast of "Home for Christmas" a musical that we did in December. I am so proud of everyone involved!!! It was fun to write. I had never done that before, but I loved it. I miss it because it consumed my life for a while!!! I really want to do another one :) 

ok first a paying job, then another musical!! 

more later...so glad I figured out how to add pics...

nope no babies....

I hae received several tweets and messgs asking if I am having another baby.  that would be a big fat NO. haha  I do love babies. I have two right now, one big one and one little one :)  I think the question stems from some pics that are on my facebook page.  I was in a Christmas musical, called Home for Christmas and in that show I PLAYED a preggo. It was fun being skinny everywhere else and  only having the perfect round mound of a belly.... feeling perfect all over...having that knowing feeling that your butt is still the same size it was, your face hasn't tripled in size, you still recognize your own nose....Yeah that's because it was FAKE! HAHA so, no I am not pregnant.

I did love writing the musical though. So I wrote myself into the show. It was a lot to take on. To be the creator and director and actor, but I had a lot of really wonderful help and an amazing cast!!! It was fun and I Would love to o another show. I think it would be awesome to write a murder mystery! I am gonna think about that one. we will see!

But! Speaking of babies...I saw the most beautiful baby this weekend! My new little cousin. Davis. He is a miracle, as they all are. So sweet and soft and cuddly. He is so loved!!!  Such a blessing :) AND my sister is due any day!  I cannot wait to meet him.  and I will admit, seeing all these new little babies  along with seeing how FAST time flies...it does make my heart skip a little faster. It does make me want to slow it down and bottle it up and keep it forever. (Yes, that is a direct reference to one of my songs on the new album..Bottle it Up) and on certain days I can imagine us with another.... but then I come back to reality and realize that I already feel like I am swimming upstream with only one arm...so I smack myself out of my hysteria and everything calms down again. HA I will just love the ones I have!!!

I am still on the job hunt! got a few new leads over the weekend...UGH! I am trying to be still and pray and listen to what I am supposed to be doing and not let my over active imagination get the best of me.  I will keep you up on my meetings.
I am trying to learn to add pics to this blog, but for some reason I can't. working on it!!!
more soon!!! Amyd

Bringin back the blog: the new blog page :)

Bringin back the blog: the new blog page :)

www.amydalley.com

the new blog page :)

I think I like this. the new blog page. I don't really know what Im doing on here yet, but I will figure it out. I always do. I think I am having a hormonal low. don't you hate that?  I do. I always start thinking why this and why that, what if's will get ya! I am usually NOT that way at all. I am a fly by the seat of my pants kinda girl. go with the flow. not today though. Oh i know what it is.  I need a job.  I have had a publishing job (I am a song writer) for the past 11 years. Making really good money making stuff up. I have been successful. I have songs on the radio.  but for the last couple of years, I just settled. I am so pissed off at me.  I was making great money at probably the most CRAPPY job I could have had. Yes, it was a publishing company. and YES I was getting paid to write, which was good. but believe me when I tell you that the people that are running and Nash arm of this place have NO FREAKIN CLUE!!! but you know what? It is totally my fault. I KNEW before I went there that I had never heard of this guy. So why was I surprised when I discovered that no one else in town had any kind of relationship with him either. and believe me, Nashville is a relationship kind of town! UGH. totally mad that I went there! Now I feel like I have been in some dark hole for 3 years. like Im some kind of accidental recluse. I am mad at myself for taking the easy road. I never do that. the easy road is for sissys. UGH.
BUT now that that is off my chest I do feel kind of better. so thanks!  haha
love, mad mama amyd